My pregnancy story

It takes courage to grow and become who you really are.  Don’t fear change.  You may lose something good, but you may also gain something great.


I always imagined that when I got pregnant I would share the news with everyone. Take photos even before the bump started to show. Lol  how I wish that was the case. I was scared when I found out I was pregnant. I was confused. I talked to some of my friends about it, some told me to chuck it but I knew that wasn’t a road I wanted to go. You see I’ve always been a pro-life kinda person so how could I preach water and drink wine? I had so many questions and considered so many things. Chucking my baby wasn’t an option.
So why did I choose to keep my baby? I have always wanted to change. Change in every area of my life. I was tired of living the life I was living. Drinking every weekend wasn’t the life I wanted. I wanted to stop but I didn’t have the strength to. I wasn’t able to pull away from that scene. I was tired of being around fake people who claimed to be my friend’s only for them to walk out when Eve didn’t have money to buy them drinks. I felt empty.
Everything has a reason depends how u take the whole journey. I took a risk. Isn’t life all about taking risks?
 It takes courage to grow and become who you really are.  Don’t fear change.  You may lose something good, but you may also gain something great.

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The next couple of months were nothing I was prepared for. I fell into depression. I lost friends and I lost my faith. I couldn’t turn to alcohol because I knew I was carrying someone else. You see drinking alcohol was something I did to not let myself feel or have emotions. Now I couldn’t drink. Things took a turn for the worse. I lost myself and I couldn’t see the value in the life I was living. I talked to some friends thinking it would make me feel better but it didn’t. It felt like I was put in a corner and forced to feel or think about my life. I couldn’t escape my reality and I realized that I was left with only one person to turn to. GOD.
I began asking questions. What if God had a better plan for my life? What if this was supposed to change my life? What if having a baby was the change I really needed to find myself?
People think being pregnant u lose yourself trust me, I thought that too. On the contrary I found myself. I have learnt things about me I never knew. I have found my faith again and I have learnt to fully put my trust in God. I don’t blame the people I’ve grown distant with I’ve actually learnt that every person has a page in your life.

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I have been emotional and at times rubbed people the wrong way but hey I’m pregnant. But you know what I am happy that I am enjoying every minute of this journey. Life knew what I needed before I knew it. This is one thing I thank God He gave me the strength to go through.
When my baby kicks it’s the best feeling ever. Going for a scan, seeing him and hearing his heart beats is something I cannot explain. If this is how love feels like I want to feel it every single day. I cannot wait to meet my baby and tell him how much I love him. How he’s changed my life for the best. How I have overcome certain things so that I may provide the best life for him. How I’ve gotten my purpose back and working every single day to make a better life for both of us. How I have found myself because of him.
Through this journey I have learnt tolerance, forgiveness, patience and love. I have learnt to prioritize especially when money is involved. I have learnt to let myself out of situations that do not add value to me and my son. I have learnt to think about someone else first other than myself. I couldn’t ask for anything else. My life has become better because of my baby. This was the best decision I have ever made. I read this quote that “If you’re lucky enough to have two good options, always go with the one that scares you the most, because that’s the one that is going to help you grow.” I made a decision that scared me and I couldn’t be any happier. I have grown so much. My relationship with God is better than it was. I have put my trust in Him and He has not let me down.
I believe that my story is a testimony. We all make mistakes and that is life but the biggest mistake you can make is try to correct a mistake with another mistake. We are all given chances in life to learn; don’t run away from such an opportunity. You really never know who you are going to help or inspire along the way. What you think is a mistake could turn out to be your biggest blessing.

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