Forgiveness

My son is now in the terrible 2 stage and that has come with a lot of lessons for us. He wants to do everything and when you tell him no he wants you to explain to him why he shouldn’t do it. Most of our conversations these days are “Dylan no! Dylan Stop! Bryce I’ll beat you 🙄 and I have to admit that at times it’s quite stressful.

Since this is how we spend our days I’m slowly learning patience and the biggest lesson is forgiveness. He will repeatedly do the same mistake and when I beat him he will apologize then 2 mins later he’s back to doing the same thing and the cycle continues.

One time I was kinda pissed at him and when he apologized I told him I won’t forgive him because this is what we are constantly doing. Immediately the spirit prompted me of how many times I ask God for forgiveness and not once has He ever told me no or that my number of times to be forgiven have run out.

This really hit me hard, because here I was getting pissed that my son wasn’t listening to me yet that is me. So many times I go out of God’s will, but He’s never not forgiven me when I went back. Like a prodigal son He has always welcomed me with open arms.

In the Bible Peter asked Jesus how many times should we forgive and Jesus said 77*7 times a day…

Matthew 18:21-22

“21 Then Peter came to Jesus and asked, “Lord, how many times shall I forgive my brother or sister who sins against me? Up to seven times?”

22 Jesus answered, “I tell you, not seven times, but seventy-seven times.

… Yoh that’s a looooot of times.

The other day I was talking with our DM and I told her what if God treated us like we treat each other? What if He actually got tired of us always asking for forgiveness? What if He told us that we shouldn’t even bother because we will still go back to doing what we asked for forgiveness? He knows everything we do, think, say even before we say it, Yet He chooses to forgive us. He chooses to show us His Grace and the best part is that He never holds this against us.

Psalm 103:11-12

11 For as high as the heavens are above the earth,

So great is his love for those who fear him;

12 as far as the east is from the west,

So far has he removed our transgressions from us.

How many times do we let unforgiveness harbour our hearts because we feel like forgiving people who hurt us is us giving away our power? How many times do we want to hold on to the hurt because we believe we are justified to do so? I totally understand this because I’ve been here and still dealing with it. Forgiving people who hurt me so much but also realizing that holding on is me hurting myself more.

Forgiving you is my gift to you. Moving on is my gift to myself

I know forgiving people who’ve hurt us is quite hard and the hardest part is forgetting. So many times I thought I’d forgiven someone but immediately they do the same thing again, I get pissed and hold it against them. I’m still a work in progress in this whole Forgiveness thing but I’m trusting in God to help me through it.

I NEVER KNEW HOW STRONG I WAS UNTIL I HAD TO FORGIVE SOMEONE WHO WASN’T SORRY, AND ACCEPT AN APOLOGY I NEVER RECEIVED

I believe that with God everything is possible.  

If this is you dealing with forgiving someone, here’s a prayer that could help. Be blessed.